An email from a former lover

I can’t believe you…you just moved in with your girlfriend and yet you spend all weekend trying to get with me?? You know we can never be together again. I appreciate that you want me to meet you at your hotel in Chicago, but you can’t expect that I would risk ruining your job AND your relationship.

Things have been tough since you left your first apartment in Astoria. You had that tiny room that got no light…we would spend hours together in the dark and no one would know what we were doing. People laughed about you living in the basement but in my eyes, that just made it easier for us to spend all night together…and all morning.

I suppose things were destined to fall apart after college. I’ll never forget the passion you had when we first met. It was the end of the semester, and in the middle of Professor Conway’s classroom, you took me, right there on the desk. I couldn’t believe this was happening in a campus building but I guess when you need something that badly you have no choice. Just thinking about it now excites me.

That said, you know this can never work. Your job keeps you away from me too much. I don’t know how you expect to have time for “after hours activities” when you’re working until midnight so often.

Even if that weren’t an issue, there’s no way we could get away with a rendezvous in your current apartment. Between the lack of curtains and Lauren waking up at a different time every day, I’m sure someone would catch us before we got too into things. I miss you as much as you miss me but I think we both need to admit that our time has passed and we can never go back.

I know that you think about me every night no matter what’s going on in your life, but it’s time that you learn to live without me. It will be hard at first, but just think  – we’ll always have Oneonta.

Love,

A good night’s sleep